When ego gets in the way…

I’m at a point in my life where I look in the mirror and think ‘looking good!’. I still have fat to lose and other things to heal (my knee pain gets better all the time), but I’m at this point where I can see the results of my hard work and appreciate it.

However, I’ve been at this point before. Twice. When I first started eating low carb back in 2011 I got to a size similar to where I am now. I slowly gained a bit of weight back. In 2014 I started exercising consistently using Beachbody programs. Along with exercise there was a better focus on healthy food. I started thinking I could get away with more carbs since I was working out so often and I started adding more sweet potato and rice. The weight came back.

It got me thinking the other day about why this happened. Sure, the second time I had added more carb but we are talking small amounts (1/2 sweet potato, 1/2 cup rice). One thing I know for sure is that my mindset was not in the right place. I never truly believe I’d hit a healthy weight for myself. I could never see myself truly feeling free in clothes. I’ve always had this imagine of being able to wear jeans and a tank top without a muffin top – feeling comfortable. Yet, I’ve never gotten there. I never believed I would. With that mindset in place ego was able to sabotage. ‘You’ll never hit that healthy size so you may as well be happy where you are and eat the pizza’. Ego is a jerk FYI.

Now I don’t have enormous goals of being tiny or ripped (totally cool if those are your goals – they’re simply not mine 😊). I just want to be at a healthy size for my height. What would happen if I truly got to a place of believing I could be where I needed to be? Could I love my current body and still believe I had it in me to change it more? YES

You can love your body and yourself and still want more for it. (Also it’s your job to love yourself!) You can wake up and appreciate everything your body has done for you, nourish it with amazing food, exercise in a way that feels good, and still need to lose some fat. It’s your responsibility to do these things!

My point is that your mindset can make or break you. Ego will make you settle because it doesn’t want to get pushed out of its comfort zone. Tell ego to F off! Mindset has been a game changer for me. Working with a mindset coach is what helped me solidify a self care routine. That self care routine included meditation daily. That daily meditation allowed me to really connect to myself and what I want. That’s why I have this blog (It was still scary af to start this blog). My mindset now is the reason I’ll be able to hit goals I’ve never hit before. I love my body and all it does for me! I’m excited to continue loving it and watching it change.

You are worthy of being happy in your body. You are allowed to, and should, love yourself. That doesn’t mean you have to settle. You can love yourself and want to change. Change will happen when you love yourself.

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