Change is hard – we’ve all heard this hundreds of times. But why is it so hard? Because ego does not want change. Change is unknown. It’s scary AF. Ego wants to protect you and it does that by keeping you small and unchanged. It clings to what we know.
What if we approached change differently. Instead of expecting it to be hard can we expect that it’ll be different but good?
I’ve found myself the last day or so feeling unease around work. We have an intense week of renovation happening soon and I’m not sure what my schedule will look like or how things will go exactly. Two weeks away and I’m not sure what I’m working – for me that is crazy! I like plans. I ultimately like control 😉 It’s not that I have feelings of stress or overwhelm just an excess of planning. I’m so excited about the changes happening but my need for life to be planned leaves me constantly trying to plan my days to the minute (I kid you not!). It’s not relaxing at all and yeah, it affected my sleep last night. This morning during meditation was when I clued into why. It’s usually during meditation when I’m quietly paying attention to my thoughts that I get my aha moments.
Telling myself that my life needs to be planned in order to be in control is a story. I’m letting go of that story but along with that comes letting go of planning everything. It’s hard but necessary. I want to be able to adapt to any change without that sense of loss of control – just excitement.
On some level my fear of letting go of control has held me back from a variety of things. Taking risks, trying new things, and stepping out of your comfort zone are all things that require you to stand in the face of fear and say screw it. When you do the thing that scares you it widens your comfort zone a little. The more you do things that scare you the bigger your comfort zone becomes.
So, I’m doing my best to work through this in my meditation. Being aware of this story is key – this will allow me to catch my negative thoughts and replace them with positive ones. Over time, and with repetition, the positive thoughts take over and those negative ones don’t creep in as often. The inner work can sometimes feel just as hard as the stories we tell ourselves, but it’s always worth it 🙏🏻💜